Trauma Bonding My Story
Trauma bonding is another term that completely caught me off guard. I always believed I was a well-adjusted person, so discovering this aspect of myself was shocking. During my therapy sessions and various courses aimed at helping me break old habits and move away from my former life, I realized how swiftly circumstances can change. You can find yourself becoming the person who downplays certain behaviors. I often felt trapped, and leaving was never easy. Each time I declared I had enough, he would return, and the attachment seemed crazy to me at the time. The whirlwind of emotions and intensity surrounding this relationship was overwhelming. I even found myself begging and yelling at times, frequently being blamed for issues that weren’t my fault. It was a challenging period for me, and I had no idea that, in addition to being a victim of domestic violence, I was also experiencing trauma bonding
I noticed a recurring pattern within myself; upon reflecting on my previous two relationships, I realized they also exhibited signs of trauma bonding. This realization highlighted the need for personal growth, prompting me to explore the reasons behind these patterns and start my own journey of learning and healing.Through therapy and self-discovery, I began to understand the complex dynamics that had kept me trapped in these unhealthy relationships. It was eye-opening to see how my past experiences and emotional vulnerabilities had played a role in the formation of these trauma bonds. This awareness marked the beginning of a transformative journey, one where I could finally break free from the cycle and reclaim my sense of self-worth and independence.
I committed myself to healing and understanding the root causes of my behaviors. This process involved delving into my emotions, acknowledging past traumas, and learning healthier ways to cope with challenges. It was a gradual and often difficult journey, but with each step forward, I felt more empowered and in control of my life.
As I look back on my journey, I am grateful for the insights and growth that have come from facing these challenges. I have learned to trust myself, set healthy boundaries, and prioritize my well-being. While the scars of the past may remain, they serve as reminders of my strength and determination to create a healthier, more fulfilling future.