Im Not That Person

I used to believe that chaos was a sign of health.

I was someone without boundaries.

I was a person struggling with addictions.

I made choices that were not beneficial to my well-being.

I was willing to do almost anything to fit in.

I sought love in all the wrong places.

I consistently invested my energy in everyone around me.

I detached from my feelings.

I distanced myself from the world.

The truth is, I'm not that person anymore. If you knew me back then, remember this: I no longer live in that space, and it's essential for you to understand this. The old me died the moment I chose to heal and confront all the ingrained issues I faced—the harsh words that echoed repeatedly, the consistent disappointments from others, the lack of respect I received, and the abuse I endured throughout my life. That old version of me was buried the day I decided to change. I am healing for my own sake, and I aim to break the generational curse with me. Unfortunately, many of you encountered me during a time when I struggled to like myself, carrying the weight of every trauma with me through life.Now, I am on a journey of rediscovery, learning to love the person I am becoming. Healing is a conscious decision I make every day, and it's something I embrace fully. I have learned the importance of setting boundaries, saying no when needed, and prioritizing my own well-being above others' expectations. My focus now is on cultivating relationships that are based on mutual respect and understanding, rather than dependency or obligation.

Through this process, I have come to realize that true strength lies in vulnerability and authenticity. I am no longer afraid to share my story or to admit that I am a work in progress. Embracing my imperfections has allowed me to connect with others on a deeper level, with empathy and compassion not just for myself, but for everyone I meet.

I have also discovered the healing power of forgiveness—not just forgiving those who have hurt me, but also forgiving myself for the mistakes I made along the way. This forgiveness has been freeing me from the chains of resentment and bitterness that once held me back.

Today, I am focused on living a life that aligns with my values and dreams. I am committed to creating a legacy of love and resilience for future generations, breaking the cycle of dysfunction and pain. My journey is far from over, but with each step forward, I am reminded of the strength and courage that has brought me to this moment. I am grateful for the lessons learned and the opportunities to grow, and I look forward to embracing all that lies ahead.