A Tale of Personal growth and Solo Adventures
October started off rather slow as i was on the end of holiday after everything got a little bit to much between my health been wrecked and the ole mental health has been wrecked so it was a much needed a trip away spend some time with my youngest daughter, seen a good friend i miss dearly and some much time to reflect and rest.
Exploring new Places
October has been a time of adjusting to a new normal and coming to terms with various challenges. While things remain uncertain regarding confirmed diagnoses, it is definitely neurological, and each day presents its own set of difficulties. Some days are tougher than others, as even the simplest tasks have become more challenging. My days are much quieter now, as I struggle to handle sounds for extended periods and often experience light sensitivity. Engaging in conversations can be particularly difficult on certain days. It's all about learning how to navigate life and understanding what a typical day looks like for me.
I have also become increasingly aware of my surroundings lately and find myself drawn to things I once considered strange, as well as to people I previously labeled as weird. I'm exploring places I used to think were dull, and while I'm quite happy in my little world, this time it’s not an escape from fear or avoidance. Instead, it’s a space where I can take the time to sort through my thoughts and reconnect with the environment around me.
I have always been open to the idea of finding love, but it has never been my top priority. To be honest, the dating scene is quite unpleasant; I have witnessed some truly disturbing behaviors, heard the oddest things, and encountered strange situations that have made me want to completely close the door and say a firm "no." I recognize that my standards have risen; I have been focusing on loving and accepting myself, which marks significant personal growth, considering I have struggled with self-hatred for a long time. I'm beginning to understand what I truly deserve and how I should be treated. Ultimately, this realization means that change is necessary on my part—out with the old and in with the new.
Thank you, October! Another month has passed in my healing journey, leading me to new beginnings. I’m curious about what November has in store for me.
