The unhealed & The crazy Brain
My journey began in May 2021, and I thought it was challenging enough, but things quickly took a turn for the worse. Three therapy sessions in, and it has been overwhelming with numerous assessments. The domestic violence I experienced was more severe than I initially realized, which was a shocking revelation for me. Living with a narcissist who knew how to manipulate the situation was a painful truth to acknowledge. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, so what exactly is PTSD?
Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that can develop after a person has been exposed to a traumatic event. These events may include natural disasters, accidents, war, or physical or emotional abuse. Symptoms of PTSD can vary but often include flashbacks, nightmares, severe anxiety, and uncontrollable thoughts about the event. People with PTSD may also experience difficulty sleeping, irritability, and trouble concentrating.
It's important to note that PTSD can affect anyone, regardless of age, gender, or background. Treatment for PTSD often involves therapy, medication, or a combination of both. Therapy can help individuals process their experiences and develop coping mechanisms to manage their symptoms. If you or someone you know is experiencing symptoms of PTSD, it's important to seek help from a mental health professional who can provide support and guidance on the journey to recovery.
It explains a lot, I suppose. It's not easy to come to terms with the realization that what you thought was normal isn't, and then discovering that you've been in a constant state of fight or flight. Your body feels exhausted from living in chaos, a world you've always known. Despite taking courses and trying to slow down, your body continues to react. It's time to dial back life even further.
Why not add some more to the mix and learn that this is past post concussion syndrome and you have have a mental head injury so not only did this person abuse me for 4 years, then decided i need to be assulted the toll it has taken on my over all body is crazy, you know what im aloud to be pretty mad why because the justice system just gives him a slap on that hand and he gets to walk around with not a care in the world, he does not have headaches that dont go away, i have no inner ear balance im constantly spining, i have so many appointments its over wheming and just breaks me every time i have talk about, my head has so much pressure in it some days, im partially deaf like this is nect level. Im honeslty shocked at how much this had really effected my life and changed things.
I have my MRI appointment tomorrow, and I'm relieved to move forward from uncertainty. It feels like I'm on the path to recovery, but I am unsure about how things will unfold.
