Living in Survival Mode
My Personal Journey
For many years, I lived in what I now recognize as survival mode—a state that felt natural to me but was gradually deteriorating my well-being and severely impacting my mental health. It wasn't until 2001, after I experienced an assault and suffered a breakdown that led to homelessness, that I truly confronted my reality. Although my body had been signaling distress for some time, I distracted myself with busyness and excuses. The last three years have marked a significant turn around, and I want to share my journey toward acceptance and healing.
Recognizing the Signs
Looking back, I can see that there were numerous signs indicating I was stuck in survival mode. My body was constantly on high alert, and I was perpetually exhausted. Anxiety and tension became my constant companions, and I found myself struggling with basic tasks. Despite these challenges, I persisted, unaware that I was merely surviving rather than really living.
The Turning Point
The realization that I needed help came gradually, but it was a powerful turning point in my life. Accepting that I was living in survival mode was difficult, but it was the first step towards change. I had to confront the reality that I couldn't continue on this path alone and that seeking help was not a sign of weakness, but of strength.
The Impact on My Body
The effects of living in survival mode were huge. My health began to deteriorate as my body struggled to cope with the constant stress. I experienced chronic fatigue, headaches, and alot of other symptoms and medical conditions after medical conditions that were my body's way of crying out for attention. It was as if my body was saying, "Enough is enough."
Taking Steps Toward Healing
Accepting the need for change was only the beginning. Over the past three years, I've embarked on a journey to overhaul my lifestyle. This involved setting boundaries, prioritizing self-care, and seeking professional help. I learned to listen to my body and give it the rest and care it needed.
Embracing Self-Compassion
One of the most significant aspects of my journey has been embracing self-compassion. I had to forgive myself for past mistakes and recognize that my journey is unique. By treating myself with kindness and understanding, I've been able to heal and grow.
A New Path Forward
Today, I am more aware of my needs and dedicated to living a life that supports my well-being. It's a journey that requires ongoing commitment and patience, but each step forward is a victory. I’ve learned to celebrate the small wins and cherish the moments of peace and balance.
Living in survival mode was a significant part of my past, but it no longer defines my present. I am committed to thriving, embracing the challenges, and nurturing a life filled with purpose and joy. My journey is a testament to the power of acceptance and the resilience of the human spirit.