What You Dont See

What you don’t see are the sleepless nights caused by the weather, which intensifies my symptoms significantly.

What you don’t see is me waking up during the night with pins and needles in my hands, and it takes time for the feeling to return.

What you don’t see is the migraine that persists around the clock, fluctuating from a 0 to a 10 continuously.

What you don’t see are the tremors and shaking in my legs.

What you don’t see is the constant fatigue that forces me to rest for at least two hours, also helping to alleviate the eye pain, jaw pain, and migraine.

What you don’t see is that sometimes I find myself on the floor in tears, longing for relief and a better situation.

Wednesday mornings are dedicated to yoga, which is essential for managing my conditions. I start by visiting the beach to ground myself and take a moment to be present. This morning it was leg shakes, and the ole wonky walk and getting the vertigo under control. I was able to pull myself together and enjoy a wonderful yoga session. Done a mentoring session with a lady, honestly the head was killing me leaving me completely exhausted for the afternoon having to take a nap. Invisible illness is precisely that—it's unseen, leading many to pass judgment on something they cannot see. People often witness moments when I am out enjoying life and assume I am fine, which makes it hard for them to understand why I need to nap or why I can’t socialize. This is another reason I blog about my conditions: to educate others and share how I am choosing to thrive rather than merely survive.