At 44 years old, it can be challenging to realize that you've been using dissociation as a coping strategy for a significant period. I've become accustomed to navigating a world where I often disconnect from reality. If there's a relatable analogy, it might be like Alice in Wonderland falling down a rabbit hole, where you just keep falling. When you finally reach the bottom, you're in an entirely different realm where nothing seems to make sense.

As im learning to come out of this dostorted world and learnng new healthy ways of coping with life. Its learning to re connect with myself and the world around me and at time it is so easy to go back to the disorted world i know so well the place where i was able to cope with life. With each therapy session, I discover more about myself and recognize that acknowledging my mental health struggles is essential. Though it may not always feel okay, healing takes time, and with that healing comes a new journey of reconnecting with myself and the world after experiencing dissociation. This process is both demanding and fulfilling, and it's crucial to approach it with patience and compassion.

Remember, it's okay to take things one step at a time. Reconnecting with yourself and the world is a courageous and worthwhile endeavor. Be patient with yourself, and trust that you have the strength to navigate this journey.